Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Suffering from some serious pre-partum depression. Would go into it more if this weren't a public blog but I don't want to depress anyone else. Suffice it to say, I think I'm having a mental breakdown and the baby isn't even here yet. What in the hell were we thinking? I can't even take care of two children and now we will have three. Feeling very overwhelmed.

6 comments:

Cara said...

I'm so sorry. I really can relate. I know it doesn't help to say "this too shall pass" when you don't know how to make it through the moment, but talking about it does help. If you ever need a listening ear, give me a call.

Jana said...

I'm sorry Angie! If it helps, I have those exact thoughts on a regular (aka daily) basis. I just keep focusing on Heavenly Father's promises to us that He won't give us more than we can handle . . . even when I feel like I'm 'handling' everything and everyone horribly. Kids are resilient and forgiving and I know that you and Adam are excellent parents. Go reread your post from a while ago about James in primary (I think the former bishop? stake president? someone? was impressed by his gospel knowledge) and then take a deep breath and eat some chocolate and forgive yourself and be relieved that tomorrow is a new day! And very importantly, ask for help - think about how willing you would be to help a family member or friend, and allow them to do something for you. And seriously, continue to rely on the Lord. You're doing what He wants you to do, and He will help you in every way He can - provided you ask.

And that's my virtual pep talk! I will be back every few days to re-read it as I try to reassure myself that three kids is doable...

Emily and Owen Johnston said...

I'm so sorry :( I will be there in 2 days. I would love to be your listening ear. You can always move to Moses Hole....

Jessica said...

I never had pre- but I did have postpartum depression and it nearly destroyed me. I am so sorry to hear that you have this. I would suggest seeing a doctor and getting help because this type of thing can be sorted out eventually but why wait? If the depression continues after you have the baby then you'll really be in a dark place. Hugs and love!

jayna said...

Angie,
I'm so sorry to hear this. I wish I could make it better. I don't know a thing about being a mother (because I'm not one) but I have had a few opportunities to watch my siblings' kids for extended amounts of time. And i'll tell ya, watching my brother's 4 (all under 5) was way easier than watching my sister's 2. who knew?

I like what Jana said, take a deep breath (the chocolate couldn't hurt) and forgive yourself. Tomorrow is certainly a new day.

Angie, you are an amazing person with a lot of talent. You have a lot to give. I think you will be amazed at how much your capacity will increase with the new addition. Remember the trek and how hard it was to keep one foot in front of the other? You can do this! Here's to hoping you can keep your chin up... And please know that you have cheerleaders near and far.

hugs,
j

Where The Wilds Things Are said...

Hi Angie,
I just want you to know that I love you! I am sorry you are struggling right now. Don't be afraid to ask for help. I wish I lived near by so I could offer a helping hand. You are a great mother!

xoxoxo
Emily